Not that anyone actually reads or takes to heart what I write, anywhere.

But how I feel now is pretty much summed up in someone elses words. However, here are a few of my own.

I'm struggling to find meaning within my own life...

What I once thought was good for me and safe, isn't. It is, in fact, killing me.

I want what I feel I can never have.

The words I will forever live by, however are as follows.

"I've got one confession: A love deprivation.
I've got a jet black heart.
It's all fucked up and it's falling apart.

Never give in.
Never give up.
I just want to be loved.

I've gotta follow my heart, no matter how far.
Never look back, and never think twice.

Take the past, burn it up and let it go.
Carry on, I'm stronger than you'll ever know.
That's the deal, you get no respect..."

These, amazingly were probably written not from the heart, but they speak what is in mine at the moment.

Empathy sucks ass, but I can never cut ties from the people I love so much.